Armos. I am really, really sorry you're having such a rough go of it these days.

Here's the thing. You NEED to talk with a mental health professional ASAP.

If your income is low, you qualify for Medicaid.

If you go to your local ER they will help you and they will hook you up with Medicaid. You will get hooked up with the medical/psychiatric system.

From your posts, I kind of doubt they'll hospitalize you BUT if you are hospitalized, it will almost surely be for 72 hours, or less. And that would probably be a good thing, because you can talk to a pdoc and get on meds. Believe me, they won't keep you in the hospital for more than a few days because it's too expensive for the government or for any insurance plan to keep people hospitalized.

I realize that your family is not being supportive. That sucks, but you still need to take care of yourself.