Do I hear you and used to feel the same. For better or worse I've given up. 99% of my day is caring for my psych and med disabilities. No way around it. If I fight it and carve out time for other things, some pill or treatment gets left off and docs hassle me. I don't think this is what they talk about when they talk about acceptance. Anyway, the regimine I have works and I feel great doing it so. I am going to keep it up. I think I feel normal, even though y life isn't normal.