I find it difficult to talk about the psychosis. It is hard to describe and not at all like I thought it could be like. In some ways it is like a seizure aura, randomly showing up and causing distress. I think it might be more than the seeing and hearing things that aren't there. That typically doesn't bother me, although they do sometimes scares me. Like auras, what follows is worse. A flood of depression and anxiety. The time it takes for me to go from fairly relaxed and content to raging self-hatred is shockingly fast. It is so hard to explain but sometimes all it takes is catching a glimpse of a dark shadow walking towards me and I am a drooling mess.

That is the scary thing, I do take things for sleep. I started Ashwagandha this week and it seems to help a little for anxiety but I was taking other things. I bumped up to 6 mg of melatonin plus I dug out 1mg of Klonopin and when that doesn't work I throw on Unisom for good measure, but I am up a few hours later freaking out. I am a little afraid of taking Unisom at the same time as the other stuff but maybe I should try it.

I hope you are right that the anxiety will calm down although that opens me up to seizures. It is weird, the worst of my seizure disorder hits as anxiety is diminishing. I can't win.

I am grateful for her and she is a wonderful person. I just wish I could tell her.

I am very sorry for what you are going through. I know good days are coming your way because you deserve it.