I am feeling supremely unmotivated. I just can't be bothered to care about anything. I just want to lie in bed and stop existing for a little while.

There are three possibilities for why this is happening: 1. upping to 20mg of Zyprexa, 2. depression, 3. negative symptoms. Or maybe a combination of all three.

Today I saw an angel disguised as a human. I'm being followed.

Sorry, there is no real point to this post. I just need some support to keep going.