Long story short, I had awful anorexia while I was in college (around 1999 - 2001). I have been in recovery since except for a brief relapse around 2012.

A series of medical events (emergency surgery, plus the worst stomach flu I have had in 10 years) has caused me significant weight loss. Worse, I am having hypomania right now. When I get manic, I am not very hungry, don’t care to eat, it is not even an eating disorder thing. However, what is making the eating disorder thoughts happier in my head is seeing the weight loss on the scale, having clothes that were once fitted a month ago loose on me now. It is screwing with my head.

I did get more sleep last night by taking an extra sleep pill as told to do by my pdoc. However, my daughter woke up at 2:30 AM, super mad and depressed that the tooth fairy had not come for the tooth she lost at school yesterday (my husband & I totally forgot about the tooth). Luckily, she fell asleep again, and the “tooth fairy” came. But I couldn’t get back to sleep after that.

I went to bed early, around 8:30 PM, so I guess that was about 5 hours of sleep, better than the 3.5 hr the night before but still not enough to get the hypomania under control and help with appetite so I can gain some weight back.

(Sorry, I was not sure whether to post this in the BP forum or the Eatung Disorder forum, but the ED forum seems less active than this one anyway. Mods can move it if you like.)