*tw* for SI

I am so depressed. I can't sleep. I can't be awake. When I'm out I want to go home. When I'm home I feel tortured with boredom. I've tried reading or watching Netflix and nothing helps. I just want to go home back to the states. I give up. You win, SZA.

I'm afraid to attempt anything in case I end up at an Egyptian hospital. So scary! Hospitals are scary enough at home let alone in a foreign country. Plus it'd be annoying for my family to have to figure out how to bring my remains to the US. So that's stopping me too.

None of this matters anymore. I'm stuck in this hell of a life. No one deserves to feel the way I do right now. Nobody.