Hey there Blue!
Massachusetts drivers do go very fast!

Been there, done that.
Please be careful.
When you have mentioned voices here in the forum, especially the man and, sometimes, the lady, you also usually report a shift in mood. I don't know if this observation helps you in any way or not.
Check in with your therapist about this, too.
Have you considered journaling now that you live alone? There's nobody around to "find" it right now.

WC