Thanks a lot for this. While I do completely understand that his decisions are for his own good, just like my decision to cut off all means of contact from my end to control my impulses. However, we have had distance, technically we stopped our friendship 2 months ago, and then when I tried to mend it by asking him if he wants to meet for a drink or maybe we can walk the dog together, he said no and eventually after we chatted called me a symbiosis which I don't completely understand, it felt like he said I'm a parasite. That's when I unfortunately Also to give you context, he was hospitalized in December when he went home because he told his parents he wanted to attempt, which was really a cry for help, they dealt with the situation wrong, so he stayed there for a month was given wrong meds. He came back, within 5 days he went for it. So technically, I haven't had him living with me for 4 months now. Also when he was at the hospital the first time, he tslked to me every day not the other way around. But after the attempt it changed. It hurts but I guess only time will heal