There is no niece I dont have one. The things i stated happened to me. I just dont understand how i got this way. I can never forgive myself for how i turned out and dont even know how i turned out this way. Other people had sa happen to them and they never turned out that way. I have a daughter i raised. I love her she is happy and healthy. I never ever wanted her to feel the way i did and she hasnt gone through any sa that i know of and im so glad. Anyway please forgive me for lying i dont want to be a freak and im so ashamed of the me I am. I dont ever remember being abused by an adult so i dont get me. Even people that have been through sa by adults dont have sex with dolls when they are little. My counselor tells me to say a prayer that my inner child feels peace. I just want to hide under a rock right now. It doesnt help that wheni was little and acting out sexually my mom threatened to take me to an orphanage. Im so sorry.