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so I'm not sure exactly where to put this, so I'll try here.
my Grandma died last week Friday. I didn't know the extent of things until I walked into her hospital room Tuesday of last week and heard my mom talking to my sister about it, to which I was shocked to hear them call it end-of-life care! this is my Grandmother on my dad's side, all three other grandparents have been gone for fifteen-plus years now.
so later that Tuesday evening, I sent out an email to some of the relatives on the other side of my family, aka my mom's side. and as sad as this sounds, all I have is two friends, plus relatives - that's it for "friends"! so that's who I MYSELF told about this.
I'm f-ing pissed at what I found out this evening. a little birdie told me that my mom asked 'them' / her sister to delete the email I sent out!!! I mean, WTF?! am I not allowed to ask people to keep me and my family in their thoughts and prayers because of MY Grandma?!?!?! or do I as a thirty-plus year-old have to run s**t thru my mom first?!?!
and this is not the first time she's done crap like this, but the last time I guess I could understand it a little - a f-ing LITTLE! but now, for crying out loud, it's my Grandma! she was like my best friend, in a way, and I'm so terrified about the negative effect this is going to have on me! so why the h**l can't I talk about someone that is special to me??
and of course, I can't call her out on it - can't reveal my un-named source! and the one person I could maybe mention this too is my dad's sister, who just had two funerals in one week - so it's not like I can right now.
so how the h**l does a person deal with emotions like this?? and at a time like this?????
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