Another delay of a couple of weeks, but I'm back again!

There is no one else in my life (in that romantic/sexual/intimate sense). I mean, it's been over a year and a half since I've even been on a date. On one level I’m not really happy being single, but, at the same time, I think it’s for the best right now. I honestly don’t know how I’d feel if there was someone else in my life; I may even feel more distraught at the idea that I couldn’t be who they wanted me to be. It’s such a common (natural?) thing to have/want sex, so it’s likely that almost anyone I meet would have a sex drive higher than mine. The idea of not being able to give them what they want just makes me feel miserable. So, yeah, I’d rather not remain single until … an unknown date in the future when this problem has been resolved (or I feel I’ve made progress with it), but I don’t see any other solution here.

Naturally I'm aware of porn, but I've honestly never seen the appeal of it. Why exactly would I want to watch two (or more) other people have sex? What do people get out of this? As for what gets me going, I honestly don’t know now (it’s been so long after all). I used to think it was an existing emotional connection that would help me feel an attraction to someone (I still consider an emotional connection to someone a prerequisite), but I have no idea what it would take now. I can look at people (whether they be male or female) and think that they’re objectively attractive, but I never imagine myself doing anything sexual to them. Genuinely, how can I experiment with what (if anything) turns me on? Porn just isn’t my thing. What else is there?