I have been dealing with a lot of SH this past week. Whenever it's nighttime and I am alone (so Su-Th), I get these urges, and it feels like I am being screamed at by them. I am unsure exactly why it's been worse this week. Maybe it's because of school, as it's getting closed to finals and I have a lot of work to do, and I haven't been doing anything, or if it's because I feel overwhelmed by everything going on around me or what, but it hasn't been the best. I have tried distractions, but it doesn't work, as i will just do stuff while using distraction techniques.

Recently I talked to a friend, and they gave me a few things, and it has kinda helped. I feel more supported now. I don't know what to do at the moment. Maybe I'll look up some things online.

My pdoc is for harm reduction while my therapist isn't exactly, like, if I do, I shouldn't feel bad about it, but if I don't for x amount of time, then you can reward yourself I guess.

Just needed to find people to relate to on this.