I can't enjoy anything at all right now. I just pace in my room, back and forth. Nothing feels comfortable. If I'm doing something, I wish I could stop. But at the same time I can't sit still. I can't nap. I can't do anything. Only pace and pace. Hopeless. There's no hope at all for me. I'm miserable. My life is falling apart before my eyes.

Sorry to both you all with my thoughts. I just wanted to feel not completely alone for a moment.