I think I am understanding more about how important it is for me to say what is and has been true for me, to dig into my past experience when I see that things have changed. And it feels like so much has changed, it is so much better, but it's like being on a great ride (or s*x) for too long on time. Even when it's fantastic i only want it to last for so long. It is more variable than that, of course, but the sustained benefits in my creative project are kind of blowing my mind. And all this stuff interacts together, because the more I speak up, the more I realize that things have changed. And it's easier to deal with disagreements or the occasional outright meanness or hostility. I feel like I'm preparing myself for something larger. See you Thursday.