see the thing is t, that i don't think i can do this work with you anymore. that whole thing in july, that stuff i know i heard you say, that you deny saying most of, it's like, well, i know logically it probably shouldn't be a big deal but it is, t it is, it's like, 1) when we talked about it time before last, you sat there in complete denial of saying any of it and letting ME feel like I was crazy and 2) even though now you admitted to saying at least the first part, I feel like I can't trust you anymore. I learned that I can't trust you with my anger. And if I can't trust you with that, then what point is there to continuing? I can't trust you anymore, I'm just a paycheck to you anyway, I can't express my feelings to you even if they're good ones now that you said "Can't you just let feeling it be enough?" Well pardon me, Miss Perfect. No, apparently I can't. So ****ing sue me. I thought I had let this all go. Obviously I have not. I'm getting angry again. But I can't share this with you, because you've shown me that you can't handle it. What am I supposed to do with this?! I don't like being angry with you. You have been such an important part of my life for 6.5 years, have helped me help myself to learn and grow and make so many positive changes in my life. I don't like the way things are now.
I can't do this anymore with you.
But how do I tell you that without talking about the reasons?!
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