((((( Spaz )))))
Please don't be so hard on yourself. These things happen sometimes. Just know that making that initial call is the hardest and scariest part. You will be ok and you will find a way to get this fixed.
The thing with anxiety at times as it has that snowball effect....one thing leads to another and another and another and before you know it, you are going round and round in circles trying to get away from that huge runaway snowball.
Put yourself into action mode and go for it....that in itself will help you feel a bit better ok? Good ideas for calling the old pdoc for some assistance...maybe you can even get a referral from him/her on where to go in your new area for a T and pdoc. Once you find them, you can have your records transfered and they will see what you were on and what areas you were working. It won't be a matter of misbelieving you
Take care sweety!

sabby