yah i dont know i should jhave reason for feeling this way right? i mean i hsould have an idea what is going on beghind this i sholul;d know what to stop[ anfd how to stop itl ni shouldnt be geting drunk or whatver, why cant i cope with this naturally? alcolhol is just drugs after all. man i will be ending up alcoholic lol if not carefu;l. idk i dont know how to cope with how i am feeling. it makes me feel high cutting anf drinking, nakes me feel happy like i am cycling fast and getting hight from that, but no am geting it just from alcohol and cutting, how bad eh and i dont feel liked i am wiriting this dso maybe iu am not