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First thing first: it seems that meds don’t negate the bipolar symptoms, it masks it and makes it more tolerable. To stone it would be to take a huge dose of meds and me to be unfunctionable- not happening.

We’ve been cycling (ultra rapid) more pronounced then normal lately (past months awhile), getting more noticeably worse.

Of course, we have been taking the same meds for a few years, especially now being we don’t have a pdoc, but just a md prescribing the same o same o due to crappy next to no insurance woes.

Just the idea of trying new meds and running a maintenance shop at the same time is so unfathomable so much that we refrain from doing.

So many questions: is it the end of this drugs usefulness? How much suffering for us and those around us would be deemed tolerable? Will I go off the deep end and lose it all?

It’s also mind spinning so much that I don’t want to try anything...just hoping that maybe it’ll just get better.

I guess I’m going to have to buy a pdoc at full price and swallow the horse pills that they are going to be giving me. Not happy.

How does and how well did it go for you and your experience?

I need support for doing the right thing which eludes me: stay, it’ll get better, or go and fix it. Thanks.