sister - thanks for you reply ~ it wasnt painful .. because i wasnt feeling anything at all.
She did hhand me the emails and wanted me to read them ..
i couldnt do that .. glanced at it and handed it back to her.
She didnt trigger me - i was dissociated when i came in ..
i was triggered the night before by a person that for some reason affects me so much i dissociate. i woke up dissociated. something about that person i just cannot talk to her - look at her and hardly think about her..because for a few days afterward .... i am just not there..