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Originally Posted by Wild Coyote
It's impossible to explain yourself when someone "blocks" you. 
It sounds like it was a very confusing relationship, for sure. I think I would have also taken a step back in order to sort things out.
I am sorry you have not been given a chance to fully express yourself.
I wonder why you are feeling panic?
Does this situation remind you of anyone else in your life?
Have there been other situations where you were feeling very vulnerable and were not allowed to explain yourself completely?
Do you see a therapist?
I hope you can get over the panic. Panic is such a horrible feeling!
Have you tried any deep breathing exercises to interrupt the panic?
There are lots of them on youtube.
You may find additional support in the relationships and Communication Forum as well.
Please take extra good care of yourself. 
WC |
I see a therapist regularly and am on medication for my anxiety. I told him in the text that I was ready to be open and supportive whenever he was ready to talk about whatever was causing the mixed messages. That I had tried to take a step back and he seemed unhappy about it and that we could talk about that too. That I had asked for space, and it also seemed like that was the wrong thing. I told him we could talk about anything he wanted to talk about, and I would try to be understanding, but that it felt like I was more invested than he was, so I needed to remove myself from the situation unless or until that was no longer the case. He said he wasn’t unhappy with the situation. That it was for the best. Then he blocked me.
I tried to apologize yesterday for the way things came out and that I never meant to be hurtful in any way. Of course, he didn’t get that message. Honestly, I was trying really hard not to be angry with what I said and be open to hearing him instead, but I just got shut down. I said something about that too.
The panic attacks are subsiding. Therapy helps. I’m having panic because it hurts me so much to think that my anxiety caused him any pain.