Hi everyone, I've been so sick for so long, I didn't have the energy to concentrate on any on-line support group. I'm still not too well, but I thought I'd give this a shot again, as I really need help.

So I went into hypomania stage (just over a week), think I'm still in it and have stopped all my meds, except Abilify 30mg, this med had allowed me 3.5yrs of stability, way back. I crashed after that.

I struggle with cycling. Was hospitalized from Oct-Jan (4mths) to wean me off meds (was on 11 at the time) and try new ones, I'm treatment resistant. So when released from the hospital was only on 5.

I can't tell you why I stopped my meds, but that I had an epiphany, while vacationing in Arizona.

I've stopped and played around with my meds in the past. I can't remember how far I went with them, but I believe this is the longest. I'm pretty knowledgeable about the illness and meds, but not quite so about withdrawals. Can someone please tell me how long withdrawals can last? Some of the effects I'm having are: Brain Fog, Sweats, Diaherria, Bloating/Water Retention, Headaches etc.

I just seen my pdoc, he wanted me to start my Lithium again, but for some reason or another I can't seem to bring myself to take it. I feel numb/flat or just plain weird.

I'd appreciate any experience you have had with this.

Thanks,

su4mentalhealth...