Thank you all for your prayers & concern regarding the loss of my Mom. I deeply appreciate your sincere caring & understading. It means a lot to me & I appreciate all of you.

Wisewoman, I am very interested in your theory regarding the lack of eating. I know I was having problems with eating before due to the reoccurance of my anorexia, but I felt like I had it under control & was eating just enough to keep my energy to ride my horses with a vigourous workout. It wasn't until the issue with my mother that I ended up completely not being able to eat any food without getting nauseua to the point where I was afraid to take another bite without feeling like I would get sick to my stomach. Even nausea meds aren't helping, so I can almost relate to the concept that what you suggest may be the cause of the problem. All I know right now is that I have become very anemic. My GP was going to send me home today until he saw the blood test, so now I have no idea what his plans are. I keep trying to eat, but with each bite, I just can't stop feeling sick which is becoming a scary feeling when I am used to being able to control things going on in my mind & life. Thank you for the concept & I will take it into much consideration as to the reason I am having this problem.

Thank you all again for your caring & prayers. It means so much to me & my family. I never knew how hard it was going to be to be an only child along with coming from a long line of only children which included my mother, father, & their parents. One plus is that I have gotten in touch with the family that I have left & am becoming closer with them than my family ever did. There is always something good that comes from something that is not a pleasant situation it you look close enough at it & make something good come from it. I believe that situations are put in our lives to grow from them, make us a better person, & to find a family love that didn't exist before. God always puts a positive situation in the middle of a very serious situation to make us a better person from it all. It just takes a lot of work to get there,

Thank you again for all your caring,
Debbie