Dear T,

I'm probably about to act out and do something stupid. I've only been seeing you for two months, and this would be the first time I acted out like this since becoming your client. There are a lot of contributing factors, but one of them is wanting to test you. Will you realize that I'm too much for you to handle? Will you finally see what I mean when I tell you how much I don't deserve compassion?

(Since this was super vague and could be misinterpreted I should probably clarify that I'm not a danger to self or others)