Thank you all for your responses. I'm gonna tell ya a little bit more of where i'm coming from with these questions of mine.

First thing is she told me to get this book and handbook titled Feeling Good by David Burns. She said read the book then bring the handbook to the appt's every week. I got the book in the mail yesterday and just started to slowly read it.

But the main homework thing she wants me to do is write about what i went through from the point of waking up sunday morning and evacuating. All through that week, up until my brother made it back to us on Labor Day. Then she said i should post that story here at pc. ( I'm not going to do that, becaues alot of it is just very painful to deal with). I've spoken to 4 friends who i will email it to. My t wants those friends to read it, then come back at me with questions on my feelings, emotions, then and now. And then when i see her again next week to bring a copy of what i wrote and a copy of what questions my friends asked and my responses to it. My t told me she finds that i'm more open to friends i speak with here at pc. Its true, a little. Speaking face to face is a rough one for me. Cause i can feel those emotions building up. And when i think of alot of things, the emotions build up into a rage of anger and i dont want it to go so far as becoming violent in her office. When i get to that point of rage, i can't control myself. Something takes over me, like i'm possessed. Anyway. Ya'll get the picture.

I just dont like homework.