And my best friend says stay away and I know she's right and I need to listen. The draw to him is very strong, even still. I went on a date that just makes me miss him more. I loved hearing his voice, I love his strong body, I miss him. I have therapy tomorrow she'll remind me that I wanted to break up with him and the reasons why, but it's true taking a break from dating is important.

I'm attracting people that aren't right for me. The latest guy told me he wants me to **** other guys, I told him I'm religious and I can't do that. He says he loves me on the first date. I'm just really shocked these type of people exist. On paper he's a good match, but in life OMG.

So seeing my ex return was like a welcome site. He didn't want me ****ing other guys. He loves me and defended me though it was against my mom. I know she's right I know she's right. I need to listen. I so love his body, he picked me up! He's super strong. Why does loving someone have to be so sucky?