I don’t know if I can do it anymore. I had to drop off of a couple of projects that I liked because the lead has been bully and harassing me. I finally stood up to him again and said I was done being his scapegoat. Now I am looking for more work but was just told because I am senior staff it is my responsibility to find work not my bosses. But I don’t have access to a list of projects so how can I find the work? My T says I am grieving the loss of my other projects because I really liked them. I don’t have the energy to find new work. This is an odd time to join a project so I am not sure anyone will take me. I am really tailspinning into a depression.