Last night my doc didn't show up as he said yet again. It had been five days of shows. Last night I totally lost it. Bear with I cn hard type due ti meds, MY pic digit answer ask desperate calls from the nurses regarding my determining mental health, I felt betrayed and hopeless, I was very suicidal and the nurse tried to keep me safe without my psych but I was filled with rage and unable to calm dine. Thy gave me 20mg fo Zyprexa to sleep and I go 3 hours.

Saw poc this morning her died he received the messages I knew the nurses had send I generally dismissed it and just fiddled with my meds. He is a great doctor out patient but hopeless IP I have little otptiont to change so I guess I m stuck with him .Iwanted to e out my easter but it seem like that is notion to happen. It is all hopeless. I cannot see any light.