These same things I did are carrying over to my adulthood though. No I dont act like I did when I was little. I dont act because I dont want to hurt anyone but the thoughts wont go away. I am triggered alot and have impulses. They wont stop but are less than when Im not around kids. I mean and it doesnt even make sense. Like I heard a sa story on a tv show we have here and immediately had the impulse to touch the dog innapropriately. I didnt but the compulsion was there. I have been this way since 8 years of age and hearing the therapist say idk why gives me no hope.