Graystreet... HE wasn't attractive, HE wasn't a worthwhile human being. What an awful, heartless person he must be, and how soulless it must feel to be him.
Good on you for getting out of that one. Narcissists are so clever at being able to suck people in, but that can't maintain that façade for long.

I hope the need to cut passes soon. If you haven't done that for 20 years you must have some handy skills to use to support yourself while you nurture yourself through this patch.
I am glad you found out it was all a lie now rather than later. Take care.