I thought this was a joke, but realize the op is serious. I'm flabbergasted by it all. I am speechless that you feel this way. I feel bad for you that you feel like you want to be Caucasian and cannot accept yourself as you are. You know if only vanilla was the only flavor in this world, the world would be a very dull place to live. It is nice there are other flavors. It gives the world diversity and a blend of flavors too. If you believe others discriminate you on the basis of your skin color, then you must speak up and fight back. I would be proud of your uniqueness. I don't think that trying to look white is the answer to your problem though, but a deeper-rooted problem that needs much analyzing and understanding. Do your parents make you feel this way too? Do they try to build your self-confidence by what you do not by how you look? I hope that one day you feel confident and proud of yourself despite your skin color. This takes doing the best you can whatever you do. Appearances are not everything once people get to know you. In the end, looks fade away and what is left inside matters more than how you looked in your youth. You are young now and are trying to find your identity. Once you reach my age, you will realize what you wanted as a youth is not what you needed as a person to survive in this very tough world. May you find peace and happiness!