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Originally Posted by Sonic645
I don’t know if this is the section to put this in, but I have suffered from derealization for a while. I’ll find myself with terrible memory, and sometimes disoriented. It feels like my eyesight is glossed over, and everything on the outside is fake. I always just feel off, and I can’t stand it. I used to have pretty severe anxiety, but it has calmed down quite a bit. Every now and then, I’ll have those anxious days, but usually I’m fine.
I’m having a hard time typing this right now. I just can’t focus, I can’t decide what to type. I always feel so out there. I’m a big stargazing fan, and it’s only because I feel like somewhere out there, in space, everything is ok. I have a hard time communicating sometimes, and I’ll try to fix it, but I always resort to sleeping because I feel like when I wake up, I’ll have a new start to the day and everything will be ok. Whenever I wake up from naps though, I dissociate incredibly bad. It’s also when I read a book, or something like that. Everytjme I take a short break from reality, it takes me quite a while to come back. Please tell me that everything is ok, and please tell me that this is normal.
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Hey hi Sonic...it’s a great section to put it in.
You sound like me a lot. I’ve grown to accept it through the years, but often caught up in the feeling....staring....wondering what normal is like....
Reading is hard, too...so much so that I quit. I can start reading word for word, line for line, and come to hours and chapters later to find I have no memory of time and content except the first few sentences or words, so I would reread forcing to stay present: always thought it was something like ADD. Eventually I find myself reading everything over and over with just bits sticking to memory: got to be too much work, frustrating, and depressing enough just to give up.
All I can say is, it is okay for me, and that it’s my normal- 50 years running.
I hope you get to feeling better. Have you had a medical/psych work up?