That was me, I believe.

I say this with all respect.

I’ve been working with a Christian counselor for the past 6 years. It’s been a work in progress for me to get to this point of my heart wanting validation.

There is a checklist that I mentioned, but it really hasn’t been mentioned or realized, for me, until really just recently.

There are memories that shut off into darkness with me wondering what the ending is. There is a part of me that strongly believes what I don’t want to see.

There is a feeling there of “knowing” that I don’t want to acknowledge as truth.

I want to know but I don’t want to see it.

I want to validate it without looking at it.

Just wanted to say, “That was me.”