I don't think that sounds horrible at all. I think for the first time in therapy about a year ago I said that all I wanted was for someone to take care of me. It felt really profound to admit that and it felt very primal at the time. Releasing that felt really good, and it wasn't long before I didn't want that again. I want a lot of things, including unconditional love from everyone around me, that I realize are not going to happen and are probably something I would run screaming from if they happened to. But for an hour every other week I allow my T to take care of me in small ways and to feel his acceptance and understanding of me as a person. That seems like it helps.

But I think for a lot of us with abuse in our background (prolly works similarly for neglect, I just don't have experience with it), this is so core to our child experience, the need to be rescued and protected, because we weren't. We missed that in childhood, and of course we would like that experience in adulthood.