Hello everyone!
Hope everyone is well...So just need to vent about current issues I'm dealing with. I'm not exactly new the site...it's just been a while since I've logged and and had to set up a new account. I've dealt with OCD and panic disorder pretty much my whole life. The past few years have been really rough for me and I've thought I've been coping pretty well until now.

Everything seems to be happening all at once. My dad passed about 4 years ago and left me his house to pay on so I would have a place to stay. Well I've been keeping up with the payments until about 6 months ago when my job laid me off...and now my current job has cut my hours almost part time. I face forclosure and have no assistance from anyone and no family to turn to. I do have a boyfriend...who sort of adds to my stress. He isn't working, on probation, and does nothing to even attempt to help with bills etc. I feel so alone and becoming overwhelmed with stress and worry. I've been frantically trying to find a new job but I live in a rural area and good jobs are scarce. I'm so scared of the thought of not having a place to stay. I worry pretty much all the time and am starting to have what I call "small" panic attacks again. I call them small because they are not as acute as a full on panic attack...but usually what happens is I'll have a few small panic attacks and then a HUGE one. Which I try to avoid like the plague. I really do appreciate anyone who takes the time to read all this venting. I just don't know what to do anymore after trying so hard for so long...I feel like I'm failing.