I recently wanted to start going to the gym, so I can become stronger physically and mentally. I have a benchpress machine in my house, so I started wanted to use that. But, problem is every time I go up to do the bench press or weights I get extremely self conscious. I feel like I won't be able to progress no matter what because all my life everyone has made fun of me for my strength. Telling me I'm always weak, every time I go up to even do weights I think of my brother or my father tell me I'm too weak to do it and that I'm not strong. I don't know guys, it just is very hard for me because I WANT to exercise. I want to get better. But there is part of me that thinks I won't, and I will always be this weak person.

I just have an issue. I even have social anxiety because when I was younger I was bullied a lot. I'm always afraid I will be rejected by someone else, because when I was younger I always was rejected. I hate talking in front of groups because I think they will think I sound stupid, or whatever. I get afraid to talk to people. I do it anyway, but it's hard. It really is.

I'm trying I really am. I just need some solid advice.