I get that way too. I'm more aware now that people close to me are sick of my rants about anything and everything. At the same time, when I am conscious of it and internalize it, everyone asks me "what's wrong"? Sometimes with BP, there's no winning. My wife tells me to not use it as an excuse for my behavior, but it *is* an excuse of sorts. I don't choose to be this way.......all I can do is keep working on it. My p-doc is happy with my "awareness" approach. As long as I know there's work to do, then there's work to do. I don't make it a priority or let it eat me up, I approach it casually and it tends to help me control my mouth.