I can relate. When I’m in a good mood and trying to be playful and light with my kids, they aren’t in the mood and give me attitude. Next time, they’re goofing around but I’m stern and serious. Many times, I’ve said mean or inappropriate things to people I love and care about, especially when I was younger.
It’s hard to say I’m sorry, but I really try to go back and apologize for my errors when I can see them. I think it helps the relationship with letting go of resentment.
I often think I’m the worst mom in the universe, but in reality I know I’m the best I can be,
and a lot of times, we judge ourselves way too harshly.
By the sounds of your post, you sound like a very caring person. I have a hard time imagining you as a terrible person. Maybe you can act terrible at times, but that wouldn’t define you as a whole. Especially when you’re working hard to make things better.
Sans