Well, 100% of you doesn't want to die, because you have made this post. We will all die someday, you are right about that. But I don't think you really want to go just yet.

What you want, is for the suffering to end. Suicide is one very permanent way to do that, but your heart isn't into it. Why? Because you would just do it, rather than make this post. That is a VERY good thing, it means there is some fight left in you.

I think a huge part of your suffering is a focus on the past, on the people who have wronged you. How has that obsession been working out for you? How miserable do you feel, when you focus on others and their wrongdoings?

The ultimate payback to those who have wronged you, is to move on with your own life. Get a good therapist if that will help. Work on being independent and living alone if you are not already. Consider finding employment or going to school. Make goals, achieve things. Start small and build up. You have the potential, but it is 100% up to you whether to:

a) Stay stuck on the past and be miserable
b) Move forward and work on yourself

I imagine this may sound harsh to others reading, but I know you appreciate actual feedback rather than a simple hug. I hope you find this reply useful in some way.