((Smbs)), first, welcome to PC and the PTSD forum. I believe that you have been totally blindsided by this challenge and you are genuinely stuck in "I can't believe this happened". I also believe that you did work very hard and that whatever had value was because of all your dedication and hard work. You did not deserve to be left out when it came to being given money from the estate either. I am deeply sorry that you are reminded of this devastating loss every day as well because of how it left you with so much debt. Yet, as hard as that is, the shocked feeling of betrayal can most definitely be emotionally crippling. It's not surprising that you can't find any way towards acceptance either. You are still dealing with the disbelief right now so acceptance doesn't come when still experiencing "shock and disbelief". Also, you have been a responsible, honest, hard working individual and you did take care of too. This is not something you have in your own wheelhouse so that makes this challenge extremely difficult to understand and accept.

The truth is ((Smbs)), it is not unusual for people to really not understand and value and respect the hard work and dedication involved when it comes to maintaining a farm or a business. This is especially true when it comes to "farming" because there is most definitely a lot of hours involved when it comes to working any kind of farm where the individual doing a lot of work is not really getting compensated for a lot the time put in.

Apparently, your mother did not really appreciate all that you did the way you thought and deserved. God only knows what it was that made her angry enough to change the way her trust was set up either. Also, when a person gets ill, the illness they deal with and even the medications they take for their illness can actually affect their personality and thinking too. It sounds like your mother was declining in more ways than you realized after your father passed away. Also, her mental state may have been a lot more challenged the last six months before she passed away too. What did she finally die of?