Everything inspiring, like "Teens nowadays are creative, super successful, will own the world" etc. just makes me sadder. I don't know why, I somehow get into this hysteria filled fit when I bawl and wonder, am I really a part of that successful teenage population? Because I am stupid, stupid, the stupidest! I can do nothing at all, I fit in nowhere! People my age are accomplishing the impossible, I just feel this overwhelming self-hate bubble up in me. My handwriting sucks, my study life is a mess, and I just feel so sorry for the people rooting for me, wasting money and time behind me when I am constantly letting them down. I am overwhelmed with these worries. If it isn't health related thoughts, it's the body-insecurity thoughts, they just keep on coming...I am sorry if I am just word-vomitting because I am just not in the right state of mind right now. This stupid thoughts never cease and I hate myself and my life for it. I stay so silent, wishing that my lack of movement or words would just make me invisible from the world, would remove all the disappointment that I am. I am so stupid and awkward and a massive piece of ***** and I got not a single distinguishing feature. I am so so worthless and I hate it so much! Is there a way out? I have been suicidal before due to chronic pain, now it has subsided. And there are moments when it just stirs up, and I feel vulnerable and alienated from everything, as if I don't deserve happiness. Any replies...please.