I really appreciate you saying this. A lot. It takes the pressure off of me to stay.

Because the thing is, I'm doing really well on my own. I just think a residential program...this program, is not a good fit for me. I can't live on my own without being in this program though. And my relationship with my family, has gotten better, by me moving out. Being on my own, and being away from my alcoholic dad...I've liked it a lot. My relationship got better w/ him too when I moved out.

I may very well move back in with them though. I also thought....maybe I could come up with a plan for when these people trigger me. Right now, though, I really just love the idea of leaving.

I know I have more work to do on myself. But sometimes these people trigger me into an unhealed place.

I made a pros and cons list. But I am still emotionally stressed out about stuff with them. I emailed the director and she does not validate me. She just defends herself. I am thinking about posting my email to her here, and her email back to me.

I did go to the gym today, and to physical therapy. It felt good. Tomorrow I have counseling therapy. I'm so excited. Perhaps I will feel more settled tomorrow. Or next week, when I meet with the director.