Well just think of the absolute worst case scenario - you suffer from pedophilia. Have you inappropriately touched any children lately? No? Then you are fine. I imagine quite a few people out there struggle with being attracted to children but don't act on these desires or impulses. I have great respect for those individuals. What is most important is that you don't act on these thoughts.

Honestly to me though it sounds more like Pure O mixed in with some past experiences that your mother made a big deal out of, when it was all quite normal. Now you are having a hard time telling the difference, which is one of the hardest parts of Pure O. I hope someday you are able to come to a place of understanding and acceptance.