Hi guys!!

I'm popping back on here for a work related question. I've only been working part time at a retail job. It's pretty easy, all I do is ring customers up, clean up and put stuff back in their place at the end of the night. But this disability process has been taking way longer than expected and I need money. So I've been looking for a full time job again. It's a lot harder considering I have a gap in employment, but I have a couple of places that have responded and I'm nervous.
Since I have been out of a full time job I have been taking risperdal. It has been increased to 3mg. Now I have noticed somewhat of a blunted effect from it. I guess I just feel slower if that makes any sense. I'm worried that I won't be able to learn a more complex job like I was doing before because my memory is worse and I have a hard time staying focused. What I want to do is take myself off of it so that I can have a little more clarity. I was thinking of halving it for a week or two then stopping it. Does that make sense? Am I risking too much by doing this? I just want to get back to 'normal'. And it was only increased because of my anxiety being high while I was going through this process in the first place. But if I have a stable job, then most of that anxiety will go away. Well, then there is some residual anxiety from starting a new job.... I don't know what to do, any suggestions?
Miss you guys!!