I've been having trouble dealing with my emotions and continued stress and have wanted to leave here multiple times. I've even requested account deletion twice but, while creeping around the forums and nosing around I seen that people were suffering and it made me want to help them if possible so, I guess I have no choice but, to stay.
I know I'm extremely weird and mondo bizarro and maybe even creepy in some ways but, I also have a very emotional heart and it hurts me to read of others going through painful experiences and feeling despair and hopelessness and heartache.
I still want to kick myself for coming back and snooping around but, I also know that if I can help someone even a fraction then maybe I should stay. I guess that's all. Sorry if I sound like a jerk.