I wish I could stop these circular thoughts inside my head. It seems that meds are what most people recommend, understandably, as they can be very effective. I’m probably an “annoying” person. I find myself annoying.

I wish I could numb myself out with meds, dumb myself down and whatever else they might do... but not the scary to me and intolerable to me physical side effects. I’m not just a whiner, I’m not exaggerating the effects meds have on me personally.

I have “achieved” something today besides ranting on the Internet.

Does it help me feel any better? No..