Dear T,

I will be really glad when this whole thing (rupture?) is over. The stress of this is enormous. I wrote you an email this evening and when I re-read it, it seemed so nasty -- and yet I wrote what I really think and I wasn't trying to be cruel. I just hate to think you've read it and are sitting there angry or disgusted with me or sad -- any of that is awful. I hate this.

I guess I should have waited till I saw you but it's six days. I can't stay with this for six days.

I hope you still remember that you mostly like me and just a couple of sessions ago I made you laugh more than I'd ever seen you laugh before. I hope you can keep it in mind.

~ml