Oh, man!

I love the mania. I’m on three different antipsychotics and I have wondered, lately, how I would feel if I stopped taking them. Difficult to explain but I ride at a low level of mania/psychosis most of the time. It’s lovely.

I know nothing of Lamictal. My docs prescribe old, old, old medications because I’ve been taking them for years and years. I’m the only person that I know of still taking chlorpromazine (Thorazine).

As others have suggested, coming down from a full manic high usually slips one into a depressive low. Or a flat, numbed feeling. In my experience.

I’m not sure about the “feel like our best selves” treatment explanation. I don’t think that I’ve ever felt my “best.” My aspiration is to feel like my mediocre self, the self that I deserve.

Anyway. I do think that it is worth considering that you’re experiencing the bipolar boomerang. I wouldn’t decrease the med unless your pdoc approves, though. I’m crazy queer about taking meds as prescribed — I’m one of those people who drug-shames others who take 3 aspirin when the directions clearly read that an adult is to take 2 of the damned things.

I don’t know that the sentiment helps but I completely empathize with what you’re feeling and I think that I know how bad it sucks. We are each unique within our disorders, I believe, yet I am always amazed when I’ve discovered just how much we share.

You are one of the best here. I’m guessing that you’re one of the best there.

Get well soon.