Let me be blunt. Please do not consider this my opportunity to hurt you. No way would I intentionally do this to you.

I agree with key tones. For that matter, who are you using for an emergency telephone number? Everyone you know is probably a two digit hour by plane from you. Also it would be a very expensive flight ticket for them. So no matter what happens, you would be effectively stuck there when needing a good support system. Not good for a person in your shape. It also does not look like you are meeting your goals to be productive in class. I know that is an assumption on my part, but that would be my goal after all the trouble and expense it would of taken to get me there. IMO at the very least, I think one IP stay would be a good reason to quit and fly back home, if you are emotionally capable of this after your stay in IP. Remember, you left your entire support system behind. You left all that is familiar to you behind. I also wonder who would pay for an IP stay?

Sorry, but I am a bit concerned about you. I still can emphasize with your situation.

Now I am not trying to poopoo your reasons for having taken this opportunity. Despite the poor judgement involved, I may have very well done the same. Honestly. But who knows? So since you are already there, I would make the best of it. Make it as good of an experience as possible. Do anything you need to do to make this happen. But one stay in IP should tell you something.