I do not understand the statement that normal is not working for you. So you want to be more tenuously connected to the reality around you just for you to be on a high? Remember, mania give you a distorted lens to view your life through even though it may be perceived different by you. MJ can do this for you as well. The two seem similar, particularly if the weed is spiked with some halluconegin, like PCP. I hear LSD can do this for you too.

Well, maybe I do not understand your situation well enough. This is always a possibility. I apologize to you profusely if this is the case. Maybe I am in an aggressive mood right now. If this is the case, I again apologize to you. However, having been here on PC for several years, I have never seen someone changing their meds by themselves turn out well. Seeing how active a poster you have been for several years, IMO I also think you should know better. It behooves you to consider my advice. But I do understand that the choice is yours. I respect this. I really do hope it works out for you. By the way, being sedated is not listed as a side effect for Lamotragine. You already knew that, right?

Well, I think I will be silent for the rest of the day. Maybe I have already hurt someone here? Moods, moods, moods. Oh well. I still believe in what I said even though I could of used better words to describe my thoughts to you.