Im still IP, but I'll be home for the next 3 days, then go back IP till the end of next week and after that ill be back to work.
It scares me i dont want to go through any of this, i still want to die. I bought alcohol and a blade right now. I dont want to go back to life and usual routine. Id just want it had worked a month ago and i wouldnt have to live and be any longer

How can i go on day after dat, hour after hour? I feel like im going crazy...